bj_shipper

oh hellz yes

2009-10-10T16:11:08Z

that is funny.
i love snoop dogg, man.

bj_shipper @ 2009-09-13T21:31:00

2009-09-14T01:43:00Z

Okay. Coll - Please shut up. You. are. not. my. MOM. You're scaring my best friend! Btw, I don't know what to get her for her birthday... Maybe a carton of Camels?? But of course I would smoke them all... I think what would be best is to send her to my mom's "stop smoking" class... of course I wouldn't be able to go. >.<

Anyways, Coll won't leave my dog alone. I mean, you brought your fucking cats! He's gonna be pissed! And you can't block him from one half of ~~your~~ our house! AND NOT WITH A CHAIR! ONE CHAIR??! COME ON, HE'S FUCKING HUGE!

(this is annes bestie and i think Coll is hilarious and i really wanna get drunk rite now.....jus to let u no.)

Yes, thank you Shelly (lost_junkie47), for that intelligent insight. And I agree... and would also enjoy an alcoholic beverage right about now.

Okay, Shelly would like to get on her account now, so I think my rant is over. I think we're gonna break into the brandy.
Peace and love, amigos.

(hey, wait, one more thing, check out that song we're listening to, its really nice. so is Lights. www.myspace.com/lights)

i fall 3x as hard if its from nothing at all...

2009-09-06T13:01:00Z

Ah, Envy on the Coast. One of my very favourites. I have to say that I always listen to all their songs all the way through. I'm surprised they aren't much more famous, and I can't say I'd prefer it that way. I like their 'underground' feel, and the way their music just won't sell out. At least, I would hope not! Please enjoy, and if you'd like to have a few Envy songs, just let me know. I'd love to file share :)

bj_shipper @ 2009-09-04T15:50:00

2009-09-04T20:20:13Z

My current state of mind is just.... fucked up. I've got the swine. Damn pigs. This is what I get for not eating pork?! >:( And so yeah, thanks to this little sickness, I've missed three days of work I'll have to make up. Shit, I don't know if that can be done!! And my family won't leave me alone. I don't think they remember that I'm sick, because they keep asking me what I did at school today, and they won't let me sleep. It makes me sad. I've started to realise how little attention they pay to the reckless teenager. I left at 9:30 the other night to go buy cigarettes and to go to White Castle with my cousin, and yes, I did smoke half a pack of cigarettes, much to my sore throat's dismay, and wasn't back til bout 11. Don't get me wrong, I like that part of their apathy, but how come the only time they wanna talk to me is when I'm sleeping or when they're mad at me? Living here bums the hell outa me.

Oh well. We're all gonna die in 2012 anyway. (okay, I don't really think we're all gonna die just because the Mayans said so, but if we do I'm gonna be so pissed. and yes, I will be singing R.E.M.'s "Its the End of the World As We Know It")

And, just to cheer me up, and to share a really good song with whomever sees this, I give you Atreyu, one of the worlds most refreshing rock artists, IMO. Please enjoy.

Baby, tonight, let's leave the world behind, and spend some time up on cloud number nine...

2009-07-16T14:20:12Z

Happy birthday kris10_loveee !

And yeah, that was one of the two reasons for this post.

The second reason was the icon. I just had to.

Well, I'll be in San Antonio, then New Orleans. So won't be back till August. Peace.

bj_shipper @ 2009-07-02T10:22:00

2009-07-02T14:35:00Z

Hey flist people! I don't know a whole lot about some of you, so I think it would be truly awesome if you filled out this fun little quiz thing.

::

01✖ Your Middle Name:
02✖ Age:
03✖ Favorite tv series:
04✖ Favorite Film:
05✖ Favourite Song or Album:
06✖ Favourite Band/Artist:
07✖ Dirty or Clean:
08✖ Celebrity crush:
09✖ Worst Habit?
10✖ What's your philosophy on life?
11✖ What was your first impression of me?
12✖ In one word, how would you describe yourself?
13✖ What's the last book you read?
14✖ What is your favorite guilty pleasure?
15✖ Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:
16✖ Are a lurker or do you like to comment?
17✖ If you could travel to anywhere in the world, where would you go?
18✖ Harry Potter or Twilight?
19✖ What is your big weakness?
20✖ Do you think I'm a good person?
21✖ What was your best/favorite subject at school?
22✖ Describe your accent:
23✖ Do you believe/appreciate romance?
24✖ Favourite musical, if you have one:
25✖ How did we meet?
26✖ Cigarettes or alcohol?
27✖ Do you have any pets?
28✖ Weird thing to ever happen to you?
29✖ If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?
30✖ Will you repost this so I can fill it out for you?

Got this from sicodelique by the way, just changed some of the questions.

I've been makin' these eyes since '82...

2009-06-08T02:46:23Z

Oh WOW. I will never go camping again. Never. I was with a lot of my family, and my cousin Liz and I went on this trail right? And she was like "Oh, look, theres the water down there. Lets just go off the trail. We'll be able to swim sooner this way! Just c'mon!" Alright, it was stupid, but I followed her. So there we are, in our bikinis and flip flops, slipping and falling down the side of the flippin' thing. :(
So I said, "Let's go on the side of the water here." And as we're walking, Liz is behind me, and all of a sudden she screams bloody murder. I thought she just had a bad case of Fifa. (faking it for attention. thank my dad for that little acronym there. he's one for the corny jokes.) But I turn around, and right there next to her toes is a fucking snake, black and wide as a soda can, 3.5 feet long. Yeah. Best believe I know what that shit looked like, I was fucking staring at it for 15 minutes, wondering what the hell to do! Fuck, I've never been more afraid. You know there were some other fuckers in there, like, copperheads and rattlesnakes. This is Indiana!
There are only three things that scare me in this world: snakes, horses (the worst, man), and my little sister. :)
So anyways, after the initial shock wore off, we just ran like all hell and basically bounded up the mossy, muddy, shitty cliff back up to the path. Well, she went off one way, laughing, toward her dad. I went the other way, back to the campsite. The whole time, every time I looked down, I would see a snake hole. :\ This was me: "Oh God Oh God Oh God Oh God." I almost... cried. Yeah, I'm a bitch. :)

Moral of the story: STAY ON THE TRAIL. I don't care how much you want to swim in the damn lake! You stay on that trail, son!

Well, hopefully this week will be better. I have two parties to go to and chill, a bottle of Bacardi, and some stuff to smoke. I can now actually celebrate the fact that SUMMER IS HERE, BITCHES! Maybe I'll catch up on some sleep too. :)

'Aw, the moon's out! I can see Lance Armstrong!' - 'Its Neil Armstrong, you stupid bitch.'

2009-05-20T01:15:28Z

f.i.n.a.l.s. "fuck, i never actually learned shit." that about sums up this past year. at least i matured. just didn't... study. mum told me (after an award ceremony where all the geniuses get clapped for and such...) that i should study so i could be like them, because she wishes her daughter were smart and won things. then... i got angry and glared into my alg book for a few hours. yeeeahhhh. i don't really care anymore because i know i'm going to accomplish a lot one day, and then maybe they'll be proud. *sigh*
oh, and for the quote up there, i learned not to try and sound funny!smart when you're drunk beyond comprehension and your friend is not. X)

ahh. please come summer. oh, how i've missed you.

on a completely different note, and a rather cheery one, i'd like to wish abby_road87 a very happy birthday.

i'm no expert at computer graphics, but maybe one day....

"No one listened, no one cared. All they saw was misdirection..."

2009-04-25T03:15:31Z

Dude. Why do I keep getting those ads when I'm on lj of those animated lesbian makeout scenes? Its out of no where. Like, I get back from a date, have a cigarette, then get on the computer, and there it is. In my face, on my friends page. I mean, could it at least not be animated? Haha! Nah, I'm straight. Hee. Whatever.
...

Anyways, how is everybody? You know, I love you guys on my flist. I suck royally at reading stuff and then actually commenting. You know what, I'm gonna go back to all the good shit I've seen and leave a really bitchin' comment. Yeeeahhh. And. I need some new icons. Like, pretty ones. Or the really funny shit I love. Like '30 Rock' quotes. That show is the shiznit. (Yeah, I didn't like that word either.)

Well I've got to say that this is one of those really pointless posts that come around every once in a while. I just thought I'd say 'hey, I'm alive, I've just got nothing to say lately'. So there you go. Urm. G'night! : )

Let's Be Honest: A Jack and Liz Fanmix

2008-12-21T23:26:26Z

A Jack/Liz Fanmix
featuring alternative and modern rock music.
Hope you enjoy.

Click to download the file.
Cover Art
Back Cover Art
Chasing Pavements
Again I Go Unnoticed
Dream to Make Believe
There For You
Ashley
If
Halo
My Beautiful Rescue
Staplegunned
Unintended
I Want To Hold Your Hand
For You I Will
Say This Sooner
Hands Down
Lullaby

bj_shipper @ 2008-12-20T11:23:00

2008-12-20T16:33:35Z

Title: You're Awful, I Love You
Author: bj_shipper
Rating: PG
Word Count: 224
Spoilers: Absolutely none.
Disclaimer: These characters are not mine; I didn't come up with them. The title is an album by a band called Ludo.
Summary: Jack is alone at home and gets a visitor.

It’s snowing heavily outside.

11:00.

I really don’t know what to do.

I cancelled my date with that woman from the NYSE.

Thank God I did.

She looked way too much like Lemon.

I still can’t believe it ended like it did.

I’ve spent all these weeks alone;

I can’t bring myself to date other people.

Then I hear someone knocking on the door.

I open it to reveal a shivering Liz Lemon.

“Can I come inside? It’s freezing.”

“Yeah, come in.”

I almost learned to live without her,

But now she’s here, reminding me of the days

When I was sure she was all I needed.

Although, I believe I still feel that way.

“Just… one more night. I’ll promise not to bother you anymore.”

My head is smearing the words she said.

It’s a softer side of her I haven’t seen in a long time.

I’ve been replaying our last loud, painful fight in my mind,

Over and over.

But now,

I suddenly feel alive again.

We’ll talk about it…

Tomorrow.

For now, having her here

is all I need.

God, I need her.

“I still love you, Lemon.”

Her pained expression is killing me.

She doesn’t reply;

Instead kisses me.

She doesn’t love me, at least not anymore.

I wish I could still make her happy.

I wipe away her streaming tears and pretend

everything is good.

bj_shipper @ 2008-12-03T08:43:00

2008-12-03T01:45:33Z

This is the first poetry I've ever written. I was just... inspired by a friend. Sorry if you hate it or something.

Forget
The rose I planned to give you

Scared me half to death

So it withered in the dark

As I took my final breath.

Remember these awful words

I struggled to get out

You know I loved your smile

So I’m sorry if this makes you frown

I’ll be seeing you around

Even if you won’t see me.

This is for the better, love.

Even if you disagree.

bj_shipper @ 2008-12-02T16:25:00

2008-12-02T21:38:43Z

This guy made my day.

"...I know."

2008-11-28T03:56:46Z

"Sir, the possibility of successfully navigating ~~an asteroid field~~ a new fandom is approximately 3720 to 1."

Title: "...I know."
Pairing: Jack/Liz
Rating: G
Type: Drabble
Disclaimer: I don't own the characters or the show. (I'm no Tina Fey, that's for sure.)
Summary: "A Jedi shall not know love." Thank God I'm not a Jedi.

"Why is this big-shot party in Philidelphia again?"
"I, uh, never said. Okay, we're almost here."
"Okay... where is here?"
He grinned as he turned into the Philidelphia Convention Center.
"Jack, the Star Wars convention!"
"Yes, I heard you talking about how badly you wanted to go, but didn't know who to go with..."
She looked at him with sheer delight.
"Man, you didn't have to take me to this awesome thang!"
She looked like she was going to explode from happiness.
"I'm aware of that, Lemon, but I thought we'd both take something from the so-called-awesome experience."
They watched as Jar Jar Binks got out of his dented Volvo.
She botled from the car and before shutting the door said,
"You're like, the best friend ever."
"...I know."

bj_shipper @ 2008-11-26T16:26:00

2008-11-26T21:27:41Z

Got this from kris10_loveee

Name a show you can't miss: 30 Rock, Lost

Name an actor who would make you more inclined to watch a show: Nestor Carbonell, Alec Baldwin

Name an actor who would make you less likely to watch a show: Tom Cruise, Lindsey Lohan

Name a show you can and do quote from: Lost, 30 Rock, The Office

Name a show you would recommend everyone to watch: The Office, 30 Rock, (Lost.. not so much... its not for everyone. hee!)

Name a TV series you own on DVD: The Simpsons

Name an actor who launched his/her entertainment career in another medium but who has surprised you with his/her acting chops in television: Tina Fey is the only one that comes to mind. She's great

What is your favorite episode of your favorite series? "The Other Woman", Lost

Name a show you keep meaning to watch but you just haven’t gotten around to yet: Bleach. (I think its an anime... ?)

Ever quit watching a show because it was so bad? Family Guy. It got really funny, then really bad, IMO.

Name a show that's made you cry multiple times: CSI and Lost. And two (2!! thats 2 too many!) fanfictions for 30 Rock. *hides*

What's your favorite/preferred genre of TV? Comedy, science fiction or the occational crime drama.

What was the first TV show you were obsessed with? The Simpsons! heehee!

What TV show do you wish you never watched? Desperate Housewives. I got addicted; I've been sober for a couple months though

What TV show scared you the most? I haven't really seen a scary show, but I was really freaked out when Ben (Lost) called the smoke monster to kill the Keamy people... that was the "like, woah!" moment of the year.

What is the funniest TV show you have ever watched? 30 Rock or The Office

Do you prefer TV to films? Usually, but I have my favourite movies.

Name current TV relationships that you love.
Liz and Jack - 30 Rock
Dwight and Angela - The Office
House and Cuddy - House M.D.
Tom and Lynette - Desperate Housewives

Not current:
Gil and Cahterine - CSI
Sawyer and Kate - Lost
Ben and Juliet (I know they don't really count, but whatever) - Lost

Ficlet: An Unlikely Pic

2008-10-18T00:30:46Z

Title: An Unlikely Pick
Characters: Sawyer, **the other one's a surprise**
Word Count: 269
Summary: He might have picked the wrong man for the job.
Note: Not my usual charax; it's new for me. :)
Disclaimer: I do not, in any way, gain profit from the writing of this fiction and all the characters belong to their original creators.

Night was approaching the island, and Sawyer was searching for his tarp.

Where the heck could it have gone?

He left it by his stuff; maybe someone borrowed it. He asked around, but no one knew where it was. He tromped out away from the others as deep into the jungle as he thought necessary –he didn’t want to get lost like everyone else seemed to do around that place.

“God damned thing! It’s gonna rain tonight, I know it!” he thought to himself.

Just when he was going to turn back, he heard leaves and sticks crunch somewhere in front of him.

“Howdy, Juju, that you?"

Realizing it wasn't who he thought it was, he was starting to get creeped out. He turned to leave, but then he saw Charlie. There was a pregnant moment where Sawyer just stood wide-eyed, wondering if he was loosing it like everyone else.

“What the hell,” he managed to whisper.

“Nice to see you , too,” the hero said. “I need to ask a favor of you, Sawyer.”

His British accent was familiar; it was almost comforting, but then he remembered he wasn’t supposed to be hearing it.

“Take care of them. Claire, Aaron, Hugo. Take good care of them.”

Sawyer nodded once. Charlie looked to the ground, then said “Your tarp’s with your stuff, Sawyer.”

He looked back toward his few positions on the beach; when he looked back, of course Charlie was gone. He half ran back to the edge of the beach where is things sat. Sure enough, his green tarp was folded up and lying on his pillow.

FIC: You Shot for the Stars and Hit the Moon

2008-07-31T01:02:33Z

Title: You Shot for the Stars and Hit the Moon
Characters: Richard, Benjamin
Word Count: 402
Summary: Oh, what the moon can do to you!
Disclaimer: Just borrowing. Again! And I don't get paid either. ;)

Every once in a while he would get a chance to go to the beach. He adored the feeling of sand between his toes, the smell of the salty water, the sound of waves crashing. The things that most people liked about beaches.

But the thing he liked most about being by the beach on those nights was seeing the moon shine above the water. He didn’t know why, but he had been fascinated by the moon for as long as he could remember. Which seemed like forever.

Once, he was followed by Ben to the beach, unknowingly. He stood in the water, staring at his moon, his captivating moon, hands in pockets.

“Nice night, isn’t it Richard?”

Ben startled him, and he nearly fell into the shallow water. Seeing he was so surprised, he added, “And a great night for deep thinking, I suppose?”

Richard relaxed and sighed. He picked up on the insincerity in Ben’s voice. Sometimes he thought Ben liked to mess with him, stir him up a bit.

“Just thought I’d escape for a while... collect my thoughts.”

“You’ve been escaping every night this past week. Anything I can help with?”

"Not unless you've seen the things I've seen. Been the places I've been."

“You’ve been to the moon?”

“What?” A wicked smile spread across Ben’s face.

“You were staring at it, and so I thought you were saying you went to the moon.”

Richard’s expression went from solemn to slightly angry.

"Sometimes I wonder how you became their leader, Ben.”

Perhaps it's because he’s insightful, Richard thought. Or he’s just a conniving bastard that loves to get his way. Maybe because he knows how to get into people's heads and twist things around.

“I’ll see you at the dock tomorrow morning. Goodnight.” Richard didn’t leave after saying this, so Ben saw this as a signal to let him be.

“Alright then. Goodnight.” Leaving him with a smile, Ben walked back to his home, away from the beach.

He never really liked the beach anyways. “Things wash ashore that one may not want to see ever again,” was something he once said on the subject.

After seeing Ben disappear into the trees, Richard turned back towards the sea, towards the moon. He’d been there for quite a while. His feet were sunk into the sand, and his rolled up pants were soaked. He breathed another deep sigh, and reluctantly returned to his house.

100 Word Drabble - "Something Like Moving On"

2008-07-30T03:21:38Z

Title: Something Like Moving On
Characters: Juliet, pretty much focused on Ben/Juliet
Rating: PG
Summary: Erase the good and the bad.
Word Count: 100 word drabble (really, 100 words)
Notes: Please, please review. And thanks so much to anime_addict226!
Disclaimer: Just borrowing for a while.

Erase them.

Wipe them out. All of them.

Get rid of all the memories.

The good ones. The ones that should be good. The ones of you and him and those nights and that thing that you felt that was almost ecstasy.

Erase them.

The bad memories. The ones of you and him and the fighting and those nights where you felt something that was almost terror.

It’s all over.

They’re gone. He’s gone. You’re still here. You’ve been abandoned…

But it’s okay. It’s all over. There’s no more. Just erase the memories. You’ll be okay.

Erase them.

It’s okay.

"If They Had a Song"

2008-07-22T15:44:04Z

Title: If They Had a Song
Characters: Sun/Jin
Rating: G
Word Count: 117
Summary: What it would be like if they had a song.
Note: There isn't one.
Disclaimer: I don't own these characters, I just like to borrow them

If they had a song, it would be slow.

There would be violins; they sound sad, but demonstrate passion.

The bass would be faint but persistent, reminding them what’s important.

If they had a song, it wouldn’t need lyrics.

The music would make its own words, telling a story.

If they had a song, the beginning would make you smile.

The middle would remind you of winter nights: stunning, but incredibly cold.

The ending would be heartbreaking.

If they had a song, there would be guitars. Two, playing off of each other, giving the other purpose. And it couldn’t sound better.

If Jin and Sun had a song, it would be beautiful.

Fic: A Balcony and Bleeding Veins

2008-07-04T19:13:33Z

Title: A Balcony and Bleeding Veins
Characters: Juliet, Rose
Rating: G
Word Count: 416
Summary: Takes place on the beach a few days before Juliet tells Jack why Ben sent her to their camp. Kind of angsty.
Note: For lost_junkie47, who loves Juliet almost as much as I do, and wanted her to interact with Rose.
Disclaimer: I don't own LOST, or the characters in it!

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She tossed and turned, like she had for the past few months. She couldn't remember the last time she had a good night's sleep. But tonight was different than the others; she was having a dream.

When Juliet awoke that morning, she was relieved to find she was no longer trapped in her dream. She walked out of her makeshift tent and saw Rose sitting in the sand, tying some rope to the end of her tarp.

Noticing her stressed and unkempt appearance, Rose asked "Ya'alright, blondie?"
Juliet offered a smile and said "Yes, I just had a strange dream, is all."
"Then let me hear it! You know, I used to interpret dreams in high school. People would come to me with their crazy nightmares all the time. I'll try and tell you what it means, if you want."
Surprised at and delighted with this kind gesture, she gratefully accepted. The dream was so bizarre, almost frightening; it would be helpful to know why she had dreamt it.

"Okay, so explain what all happened."
"Well, it started on a balcony. I was there with someone."
"Do you know who it was?"
"Yes," she answered, "but I'd rather not say... Is that okay?"
"Yeah, it's fine. But was it a friend, a lover, family?"
Rose could see that Juliet knew the answer but felt reluctant to say.
Finally she said quietly, "A past lover."
"Okay. Then what?"
"This person, he whispered 'Goodbye', then turned and left. After this, I looked down at my wrists and I see that my veins are bleeding. And that was it."
Rose thought about this for a few moments, what seemed to be an eternity for Juliet.
"For the first part, hun, it means long or final separation for you and this person."

Juliet knew exactly what that meant. It made so much sense. She bloody hoped the separation was final. For the person she dreamt of was one Benjamin Linus, and he made her one miserable Juliet Burke.

"And the second part?"
"I'm sorry to say, but it signifies that you will experience a great and inescapable sadness." She said each word with its own level of severity.

Rose searched Juliet for some sign of fear, something to show how she felt. But Juliet just stared back, contemplating what could possibly make things worse for her now. Maybe that separation isn't final? The thought caused a rapid shiver in her. A reunion like that would definitely cause her great sorrow.

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Behold: My Future!

2008-06-17T14:03:43Z



		I will marry Richard Alpert.
		After a wild honeymoon, We will settle down in Portland in our fabulous Shack.
		We will have 3 kid(s) together.
		Our family will zoom around in a green Porche.
		I will spend my days as a graphic designer, and live happily ever after.

FF: Today's Answers To Tomorrow's Questions

2008-06-16T21:58:40Z

Title: Today's Answers To Tomorrow's Questions
Characters: Juliet
Rating: G
Word Count: 224
Spoliers: Season 4 Finale
Note: Set moments before Sawyer showed up on the beach after he jumped from the helicopter.
Disclaimer: I don't own LOST, or Juliet.

Almost three years ago Juliet had asked Tom why there were bottles of rum and vodka labeled "Dharma" in the rec room. He lightly chuckled at her question and told her that there were "many reasons for rum on this island". Of course she didn't realise the severity of his answer. At the time.

Now, watching her last hope of getting home explode before her eyes, she knew what he had meant. She knew how the island had ruined her life. Nothing good enough ever came because of this place that could overcome the bad it caused.

Juliet hadn't ever resorted to alcohol when she had problems because, simply, she knew it couldn't help her. But now she had nothing to hold on to that would bring her back to her senses. She used to think of Rachel when she was upset, lost, or confused. But now that she hadn't a chance of seeing her sister again, nothing could set her straight.

After seeing the freighter go up in smoke, she had walked over to where the castaways kept the little food they brought back from the barracks and grabbed a bottle of rum. She almost thought nothing of it. She distanced herself from the others around her as to not show them what she was feeling. Or what she was planing on drinking.

Writer's Block: How I got on LJ

2008-06-16T21:07:27Z

Who introduced you to LiveJournal? Why did you first open an account or get involved?

View 503 Answers

I first heard about LJ on Fanpop.com, my FAVOURITE website [next to this one] ; )

I looked around and saw how people post their icons and some AWESOME fanfictions. So after seeing this goin' down, I got to work writing and reading LOST and House MD fanfics. Yayz for Live Journal!! XD

Writer's Block: The Only True Question:

2008-05-30T14:25:50Z

Are you kidding me? Pirates or ninjas? There's just no contest! Although ninjas have their, you know, skills, they don't say much! If you've seen POTC, you know that pirates get these badass, sarcastic comments or famous last words, or even just some silly line like "I've got a jar of dirt, and guess what's inside it!" (Pirates of the Carribbean: Dead Man's Chest) Also, pirates get weapons! I suppose ninjas don't really need them, because of their, you know, skills. But those swords and nifty shotguns are pretty hawt, if you ask me! ; )

If you could go back and fix your most regrettable decision, what would it be, and what would you do differently?

Or:

Pirates or Ninjas?

View 501 Answers

FIC: Comfortable

2008-05-12T23:05:19Z

Title: Comfortable
Characters: Ben/Juliet
Rating: G
Word Count: 298
Summary: In their heads.
Note: Amateur work here, so please be gentle
Disclaimer: I don't own LOST, or Benliet. Too bad, though!

(In his head)
She pulled her hair up out of her face, in a tie, the way she did so often. I wondered why, because she looked gorgeous either way. I could care less how she wore her hair.

But I noticed that she did this during all the book club meetings at my house. I tried my hardest not to watch her, every move she made. But this was very difficult for me.

I never think my love for Juliet irrational, for it feels so right to me. It always has. It's my drug, and I've always been addicted. The only reason I ever second guessed myself was that she never gave in. Never looked comfortable with me near. Never stayed a while after the meetings. Never fell for me, like I hoped she would.

(In her head)
I pulled my hair back with my hair tie. I don't know why I did this a lot, but it made me feel comfortable. Because I certainly didn't feel comfortable in his home. At least not anymore. Oh, how I used to! Now his crush, if that's what it should be called, is making me uncomfortable.

I tried to stay focused on the book club during those meetings, but my eyes would wander over to him. He would be lookig at me already, and would smile sweetly, the way he did. It used to give me butterflies, his smile. It used to make me comfortable, but not anymore.

I think my feelings for him were irrational. I knew I shouldn't egg him on, but I used to long to let him do what made him, us rather, comfortable. But I never stayed a while after the meetings. Never gave in. I tell myself this often. Never give in, Juliet.